Today neva go sch...
As USUAL, went to the doc at abt 2 plus 3, den met ruiwen, she pei me go see doc.
Den aft we waited coz infront of see got abt 10 ppl waiting to see doc.
Den me and ruiwen went to walk around ave 8. We walk half of ave 8 den come back check left how many. Den left 7 ppl, we continued walking the 2nd half of ave 8.
Came back again left 5 ppl, den walk the whole of ave 8 again.
Went back left 3 ppl, decided to wait at there, rest awhile xiang shou air-con, coz the weather very de hot outside.

Den my turn le. FINALLY! After waiting for so many ppl. Went in den tell doc what happen den she liang my blood pressure.
She say my blood pressure between 60-100, considered low blood pressure.
I kana tio shock, but some I also dun understand wat she talking.
She gave me some giddy de medicine den jiu pei ruiwen went to cp auntie de shop help, den eat at there also.
Den got alot of small cockroach den ruiwen keep lyk shouting den ask her cool down abit.
We was there killing them. Sibei er xin de lor, eat until half way will see it coming out de.
Ewwww! Grosss!

Den waited at there for my auntie to come den go her hse eat dinner.
Ruiwen and Fish came to use my com to play games and check things.
Quite funny lah, we play audi den if we miss, we pass to the next person play, den we keep pass to one another. Very de funny sio! Haha :)


Enjoyed myself lah!
Den hope can meet up with MC kor soon!
So long neva see him le...
Kinda miss everybody...
Haha,I abit siao liao...


Thats all bah...
Cya soon!
Byes~

Today's schedule:

Assembly was very de funny lor. By dunnoe what finger art de. Everybody laugh lyk siao.
Den was recess, saw Mr Tang outside G.O. den go find him with Yiqing and Kalinda. Chatted with him until recess end. Den when settling the pupils at hall, Liyen call us go out of hall and talk to us.
Den she tell us do our duties, not talk with teacher and go help other things. Den we say okay.
Was DnT after recess.
Did some circuit thingy same as last week. Den after the circuits was test on theory.
Den the paper is 20 marks. Some question I dunnoe how to do. Den was very funny lor, Junwei and Siyuan keep make those cute faces which ended up very funny.
Imagine Junwei act cute.Haha XD

Nxt was History lesson with Mrs Lee.
I forgot to bring history workbook, den ended up sitting on the floor.
Coz she say that those who neva bring sit on the floor. Si bei bo liao lor...
Neva mind lor, sit on the floor den sit lor...I went to sit beside Zarinar. Haha!
Den after that went to G.O. go take things den bring it to North Star zone, coz I have programme at there.
The programme finish at about 3.30pm. Den sms-ed Ruiwen ask where she.
Den she say she with cheryl going back home change den go out.
Den I say I also wan go. Told her that I go home change den go meet them.
Met them on bus as they decided to go to cp. Ate lunch at Kfc den Yiqing and Kalinda came coz I told them I was at Kfc eating.
I knew when they come, they will eat some of my food de. Den was very funny.
I told Ruiwen and cheryl that den they saw it. Den they laugh. Cute sia!
Pei Cheryl go Sakae Sushi check out price for buffet.
After that cheryl went home den me and Ruiwen took 161 go hougang mall.

Sms-ed Jonathan where he. Den he say he with prasanth going cp.

Told him that I wanted jio him go hougang mall de... Neva mind....
A part of conversation between me and Jonathan. Funny sio!
Me: O.o pei me go hougang mall leh...
Jonathan: For? I ned go home study...
Me: Fine...Neva mind,u go home study lah...
Jonathan: Lol show me attitude now la...Wat time?
Me: Neva mind...u go home study lah...I now going reach hougang interchange liao...
Jonathan: I on the way now la... I also Nvr say dun wan pei you...
Me: Bleah :P
Jonathan: U jus stay at the interchange can liao...
Me: I jus reach...
Jonathan: Ok good stay there like a dog... Hahaha
Me: Lols...U good lor,call ur sis dog, den the kor ye hao bu dao na li qu...
Jonathan: Go die la....
Me: U say me first de mah...So not my fault
Jonathan: Lol, u watch out...
Me: Fine...

Call me dog,in the end suan him back....Haha !
Went to return comic den borrowed a new one.Den he borrowed ghost story.Total amount is $5.
Went to Mac to buy milk shake den bought donut also. Shared the drink with kor.He spon 25 cent for the drink. Haha!

Den on the bus listen to song den me and him listen same song den he lend me his ear piece listen. Den is you raise me up by westlife.
Den dunnoe why listen until cry. Maybe think of things again bah...
Hiaz... Den the nxt song also quite emo de. Continued crying.
He had to alight liao, den he took back his ear piece den saw me crying. He was lyk shock. Haha, scared you again?
Den smsed him ask him he tio shock? Den he replied der...
Haha!
But sorry I shock you again...




I know this post very de long lah, no choice.
If not Jonathan will say go out with him neva post again. Haha :)
Hope my DnT de test will pass bah! Pray hard!
Not feeling well right now...

Ello people!

Its 4.20am in the morning and I'm still awake!
Haha :)

What should I do? Just now I played audi for awhile and I know a new friend from other country de,but he is studying here.
His name is Dave,19 yrs old. He knows how to cook. Haha~
I know some friends through audition. They are quite ok lah.
Actually wanted to continue de,but nobody pei me jiu don't want to play le .

I think I'm gonna break Dagege de record liao,5am still havn't sleep.
Sian sia... I'm finding things to do. I dun feel lyk sleeping. What can I do? Theres nothing for me to do. Sadded :(
Hiaz....

I'm so bored! Who's still awake now? If they are, I'm gonna sms them to chat.
But the thing is I don't know who is still awake at this time.
I think there's only a few ppl awake now.
What should I do?
Maybe force myself to sleep bah. If tmr going out, there will be panda eyes on me. Arrrr!
Super not nice sia! Haha...

MC kor changed the blog skin again! But its very nice lor. Wonder how many did he changed again? Haha! Dagege is right, must put new things so that reader will go and read.
Nice sentence given!


Thats all for now...
If ltr I'm still awake,I'll post again.
Tatas!

Came back from BBQ le!
Its was quite fun but during the games is quite angry with the kids from Bedok club.
They were very rude to us and they even talk back to us. We was lyk freaking mad at them. Arrr!
They play captain ball very funny de lor,instead of passing the ball,they roll de ball to their teamates.
Den after that didn't feel lyk playing anymore. Went to the beach nearby to cool down abit.
Really felt better. After that was their eating time. They ate the things.
But some kids eat finish le jiu go play the soccer ball.

There was Jas, Cheryl, Samantha. (if the name spell wrong,i'm sry.Coz i dunnoe how is it spelled)
I think they are friends bah,as their parents look quite close to each other.
The three of them are very cute. Jas is 7 yr old ,Cheryl is 4 yr old and Samantha is 6 yr old.
They played game with us. Den we help them with setting up the cones.
They lyk playing bowling,but its not. They really very de CUTE!!! Ah!!!

After that got birthday celebration for March baby.
Me and Siqi was the only volunteer which went up. Den they sang birthday song and so on...
Ate the cake,it was quite nice,chocolate cake I think. My favourite,chocolate! Haha~
Took a group photo before going off. Den cheryl came and she sat on leg and take photo.
She is so cute! Den after taking photo, they went to the carpark there as their bus is here.
Waved bye bye to Cheryl. Den went to take bag.
Got one of the volunteer send us to compasspoint. Thanks!

Followed Zarinar to Samantha hse do her homecon project.
Den We at her hse, play the hotel 626. Super scary sia at first. After that we okay okay lah.
Den her mother went out to da pao for us. Ate chicken rice.
Jonathan went to find us.He was waiting downstairs. He rode his bike here.
Reached downstair jiu lend his bike cycle awhile, coz long time neva cycle le.
Den waited for CH to pass me the money so that I can help him buy his jacket. Chatted while waiting for Zarinar to come down.

Den we bus-ed home on 88. Alot of ppl was waiting for 88. Den manage to get two seats together. Den asked Zarinar to lend me her psp to play Dj Max on bus.
Played psp all the way on the bus. Haha :)
Thanks Zarinar!


*tired*
Dao chi wei zhi ba.
Wanna go slp le.
Nite Nite :)

3GeeOh9 is my class!

Mess with one
Mess with all!

Our CT: Mrs Ng!!!
She is cute and adorable!
The pinkys class photo!
(photo taken during the sec3 adventure camp)

Ltr going BBQ at Pasir Ris park with the TYA kids from Tampines!
Hope it is fun, bcoz this is the first time I'm having BBQ with kids. Hope everybody enjoy the BBQ later! Pray that the BBQ goes well later too and have a smooth BBQ! Den maybe after that go Hougang TYA de BBQ at punggol park. Depends what time the other side end bah. If it ends late, maybe I not going le. Everything depends on later.

I feeling so tired and I wanted to slp for the whole day. But I just can't. Hiaz....
What an I suppose to do? Should I just continue this meaningless life or Should I just leave it?
Friends asked me not to emo. But sometimes after emo will feel better or even after crying it out. Will they understand? They don't know what I'm feeling inside.
I myself don't even know what I'm feeling and doing.
Maybe I should just continue this life bah even though theres alot of upsets.
But sometimes theres still happiness in my life which I want to remember for life.

If any of my friends needed help, am always here for them. I'll always have the listening ear for you! Anybody you want to talk too, you can come look for me, my ears are always glad to listen to you.Hahas :)

MC kor: Dun so emo le lah! Must smile :)
Your didi and meimei will always be here with you!
We will try our best to help you if you need any help.

Yiqing sis: Dun angry le lah! Angry later got wrinkles come out liao, den not nice liao.
Forgive Rayen lah. He also very de sad lor. He know he is the wrong also.
Forgive him, kays?
Dun let Dagege sad wor!


Got to go le. Need prepare for later, going BBQ.
Anything just call / sms me on my hp bah!
Tatas~! *hugs*

Sch for today was until 11am. Released early as today got our school 9th Speech Day.

Went home straight after school to change as the councillors ned wear full council uniform. Den me and Zarinar went tp take 88 bus go home, we ended up chasing the bus. Reached home at about 11.30am. Den bathed and change into council uniform. Met with Zarinar and Bryan, went to cp to eat burger king den we went back to sch at about 1.30pm for maths remedial given by Mdm Leong.

After that, we chatted for awhile jiu go down for briefing for the ppl who are doing reception. Its was qute boring at first den after that we are quite busy in doing our role that we are assigned.
Ushers ushed parents and PSG and other ppl to the hall and the show begins.

Firstly is prize ceremony. Den after that is the performances put up by choir, dance, wushu and band. The overall was quite nice lah coz every year almost the same programme.
Den after the whole prgramme ended, we had to serve the VIPs. Served the drinks first. Made many rounds of serving drinks. Hold the plate with drinks until hand trembling. Quite tiring lor, especially running about with heels. Got blisters liao lor. Its so painful. Lucky got plaster, put le neva feel so much pain liao.

In the end,we had to put back the benches and tables taken from the canteen.Its very tiring after all those things. Had a short 'debrief' fro ms lim. Actually not debrief at all, coz the debrief will be on monday.

After that slack at econ for awhile den went to send Yiqing home with MC kor and Junsheng di.
Talked at void deck for awhile before going home.Den send Junsheng home and took the same bus with MC kor. Den we talked about stuff and so on. MC kor alighted first den me,which is the last one to alight the bus. reached home at about 10.45 bah, neva see the time when came home.
Sms-ed MC kor and Joel kor to tell them I reached home le...So that they don't ned to worry for me.


Think going slp soon le,very de tired now!
*yawns*
Nites and sweet dreams :)

Today,nothing much happen.

Today LCE lesson,Mrs Ng pass around the class photo for us to order.Den this year got one more whole sec 3 level collage,quite nice sia.So I bought all the photos.
I like my class very much,our class is so funny at times.

Den during english lesson,councillors kana tio scolding.We all was lyk huh?! Y suddenly scold us?
After that we kept quiet lor. We also cannot say anything mah. We tolerate lor. I'm just stating the fact. Neva mind, shall not talk about this liao.

After sch went to find Mrs Ng for remedial lesson for log and the laws and stuff. At first I didn't understand, but after awhile,I understand liao. It isn't too difficult. But remembering the laws is quite tough. Theres alot of laws to remember for maths. Stressing my brain to remember! Haha~

Den went to find Junsheng and Cheryl they all den slack awhile den Angelia went off first den weikang den cheryl den last me junsheng and me. We waited for ruiwen as they had choir practise.


Ending here....

OhYa! Today me, zarinar and yiqing took turns to cry.
First is me next is Zarinar last is Yiqing.
Me is bcoz of sch and family. Zarinar is bcoz of stress on homework. yiqing is bcoz someone siad about Jay Chou,her no. 1 Fan!

Should be thats all for today bahz....
byes~

Today:

Erm.... School was quite boring... Nothing much to do.In the morning samantha wasn't feeling well den pei her go G.O. take the leave sch form den go class let teacher sign den call her father come. Den skip the whole first period which is english. Haha! Nxt is maths lesson, totally dun understand at all. Sadded :(
Nxt lesson is History,which is taught by Mrs Lee. Today her lesson okay lah,not so boring,quite funny.
Recess time! Yeah!
The rest of the lesson okay lah. Not so boring also not so fun.
But during physics lesson,Mr Cheong wanted to pull down the screen. Den in the end the whole thing drop out,den he say that is the movement of the pendulum,den we all was there laughing.
Den me zarinar and yiqing went to call Mr Richard to tell him that our screen drop down.Den he was lyk who make de,den we say teacher make de.Den we keep laughing....Haha!

There goes the bell.... Yeah! Sch release le!
Meeting trainer outside econ.After that ate at Jacks Place.Quite funny at there.
Den is MC kor treat us de wor! So nice of him!!!
Thanks alot kor!!!!
Pei Yiqing go home den we slack at downstair her hse.
Played games den was quite fun.
Neva kana caught, only the boys kana caught.
So fun sia,next time play again!

Went back to cp to find ruiwen den took bus home to eat den went to her hse to help her do things. Let her use my lap top coz her com dun hav microsoft office. See I so nice! haha!
Now still at her hse, going home soon le.

Btw, Hope MC kor de teeth pain will be better!
Mus go see doctor if really cannot tahan hor!
Dun make ur meimeis worry! Haha!
Ned any help can tell us! We will try to help de!

End here bah!
Hahas!
Tatas :)

Here I am at home posting for today...

I'm sick AGAIN!!! Morning wake up felt giddy and feel lyk vomitting but I can't. Its very er xin de lor...
Ltr going see doctor and get mc from the doctor. Pray that I can get well soon and go sch.
My studies are falling back. Hope that I can catch up? I have no confidence in myself. I just dunnoe why.
I'm getting sick more often den last year. Have become a weakling? Getting sick so often...
Ppl ask me how are you?
I'll always reply I'm fine. But the fact is I'm not. I'm just smiling on the outside but i'm sad inside.
Ppl always say that word out den they would say sorry.I always said it's ok.
But inside me, my heart is always bleeding.It's lyk a knife that had stabbed in my heart and someone took it out and the blood just can't stop.The pain is always there.
I want to forget everything and I don't even want to remember who I am.I just want to live my life lyk a normal 15 year old kid.
But can anyone make it happen? I really hope someone can do so.
Make all my misery gone.
The kid is confused and fustrated right now...If she vent everything on someone or somethings, she just want to say I'm sorry. she doesn't want things to happen lyk this too! Who wants sad things to happen? Nobody wants it to happen.

I have nothing else to say le :(
Going see docter liao...
Byes :(

For today!

First thing is:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIONG KIAT KOR!!!!

He showed me his ez-link card and said the date very familiar right?
I was lyk huh? den i saw his birthday: 23/3/1993
I was thinking isn't it today,23/3?
Oh!!! today ur birthday arh! Happy birthday!

Will buy ur present ASAP.
Kor's leg is injured. Asked him how he injured den he say he ride bike den injured himself.
He told me the injured shape is lyk a u-shape.
I was lyk OMG!!! Ewww! Its so disgusting.
Den he still had drill and stuff. He still can do drills.Den he said that ltr the bandage confirm red in colour de liao. I said obvoiusly lah!
After that went to take a sneak preview of the Speech day celebration with jun sheng.
The celebration is almost the same as last year de programme. But is still quite interesting though.
Me and junsheng thought of finding weikang they all at sculpture de.In the end when we was about to walk out of canteen, saw them coming in. Told them that we was about to find them. They was lyk LOLS! Haha... went to slack at void deck opposite sch while waiting for ruiwen to release from choir.
Went to cp with ruiwen to find auntie den helped her with stuff.
Den went to hougang mall to eat dinner with Joel kor.
He treated me Ajisen. First time to eat Ajisen. It's nice. Saw Mr Lee Hang Hwa and Mrs Lee Sing Yee. They wee there eating too! Den Mrs Leecame over to say hi. Chatted awhile and they had to go. Said bye bye to them den we continued eating.
After that went to buy comb for sally and I too bought extra comb.
Went to interchange to take bus home. Kor pei me wait for my bus to come before he boarded his bus.
Thanks kor!
Haha...


thats all bah...
cyaa! :)

Today's post!!!!

Morning wake up,den doesn't feel lyk going tuition.So i neva go to tuition for combine science.
At abt 11.30am, went to hougang ave 8 to cut my hair as it is extremely long.Aft that,zarinar came and meet me at the shop.She waited for me to cut finish den go meet fengli.
The jiejie go style my hiar until very lyk those punk type de hair.I kana shock sio.
After that in bus,zarinar help me push my hair down abit,so that it doesnt look so much lyk those punk hair style.
After that meet fengli at the petrol kiosk near NCPS den chatted awhile jiu go meet manting go TYA do volunteer work.I went with them to tampines today instead of going hougang there de.
Den today they have block party.Helped out with the games stall.
It wasn't that fun in the begining as not much ppl come play at our stall.But after awhile aot of ppl came and play.Den we kept giving the prizes despite got go in the hole anot.
Was quite fun in the end.

After that went back at around 7 plus.Went to meet ruiwen at the hougang swimming complex there.Den cheow heng went home leaving only the girls, which is me zarinar and ruiwen.
We talked abt those BGR thingy.
We discuss abt the age and stuff.After that went to there the 7-11 go buy ice-cream instead of drink.Walked back to ruiwen hse downstair and stayed for awhile,talking.
Den sent zarinar home jiu my turn take bus go home liao...haha!
Went to the busstop and saw zarinar brother waiting for her at there but she went up liao,coz she dunnoe that her brother is waiting for her.
Den the bus came abt 5 mins ltr,boarded the bus and bus-ed home.
Reached home den on my computer to do things and stuff.


Now its already 2am in the morning and I havn't slp yet or is it I can't slp?
I just dunnoe why sia...hiaz :(


Thats all bah for today...
nothing else le...
byes...

Dunnoe y now feel lyk crying....
Hope its now because of the things that are happening around me.
I want to cry,but I just dunnoe y the tears just cant drop.Its lyk storing the tears in my eyes until a point in time, all the tears will drop.
I'm just not in the mood to play anything, I just want to listen to songs or even chat with friends.
Just hope that it will just go away eventually and I will forget all those unhappiness!
I just want to stay happy and lively everyday.But I just dunnow y sometimes I just cant.
Ppl might think i'm a crazy girl or wat so ever.But the truth is that I just can't handle things on my own anymore.I think i'm gonna break down soon! Hope I don't coz i dun wish too!
And now I dunnoe wat I'm talking about!
I'm just talking craps or things that doesn't even sound lyk me!
Have I changed to another person?Can anybody just tell me?
I want the truth! I just wanna noe wat I'm doing...

Not in the right mood now :(


Jus now went to meet da gege (david) with yiqing, junwei,weikiam, rayen.Asked david to sing us a song! His voice is indeed quite nice! Chat with him for awhile den we started go walking around cp for awhile den took pics aft that went to send yiqing home. After sending her home,we slack under her block for awhile den rayen and weikiam left to take bus home.Left me junwei and david.Walked back to cp den on the way saw zarinar with the sec 2 councillors.called her and told her that we with david now.She rushed here den chat with him for awhile jiu went down to level 1 there find the others sec2 councillors.Den he went to the bank aft that jiu went home to meet jiahao,which is also another trainer that we noe. Went to kfc ate cheese fries,den went to buangkok there eat with zarinar's family.
After that,they took taxi home den i followed them,after that i went to the busstop to take a bus home from her hse.

Now here am I blogging about today things....




Not in the mood right now....
Stopping here, Tatas~

Abt today.....
Today quite boring....And quite tired in the morning,now ok lah...
Jus had our 2hrs break and i'm back here blogging abt today before everything start again.
Ltr dunnoe wat time release from nyp sia,meeting siongkiat to eat swensen ltr with Yiqing too,as a birthday present.Hope can go there on time meeting him at 4.30pm at cp swensen.
Jus found out that 3G'09 have a blog!Yeah! jus now went to see,its abt the adventure camp.Got pictures abt the outdoor cooking.Den got alot of candid photo sia!
Ltr hope can go earlier...Haha~
Tmr maybe meeting joel go watch movie...still deciding...haha~
Now so sian...
Ltr going start lesson soon!
teacher come le,got to go!


Tatas!

Yo ppl!!!

I today last day having this course liao!
This cousre although not fun,I learnt alot of things through this course.
Learnt how to create things using com, den use all the tools to create the sculpture.
Now having break time from 11.17am -1.30pm,which is very long lunch break.Haha~
Everyday also the same de. Sianz lor....
Today quite boring lor...Ltr have test to test us on what we learn.Hiaz,I confirm dunnoe how to do do the lor...Fail ler lah! Sadded!

Ltr maybe meeting ppl at compasspoint..haha~ Den after that slack awhile den go home bah...Hope can release early today also! Coz last few days very early jiu release liao.
So happy lor...haha~



Nothing to blog le lah!
Going start test in abt 17 mins!
Pray I pass the test!
Tatas ppl!!!

Here I am at NYP!
Yeah!!!
But here quite boring sia...Nothing to do,listen the teacher say wat, we do wat...
AND here oso very de cold! Bought 1 jacket from NYP,quite cheap,cost $19 and very de nice.
Jus now had a headache den now ok liao,aft eating my lunch.
Ltr still ned continue the lesson until dunnoe wat time.
Hope it end soon,den can go slack awhile outside.
Now tired,but still mus listen to the lesson.
Lucky got ppl pei me sms to keep me awake!Haha~
Thx for pei-ing me sms!

Now going back to listen class le...
Blog again later!
Tatas :)

I'm finally BACK from PULAH UBIN!!!
After we reach sch, me zarinar zixian and kangqiao took taxi go home. KangQiao alighted first den zixian den zarinar den last is me. Reach home,faster went to bath and aft bathing, feel more refresh.

At first when we reach the jetty,we thought it would be a fun camp.BUT after reaching there, found out that it was not fun at all. The weather there is very hot and we slept in tent and during the day,the tent is very stuffy and hot.But in the night,the tent is very cold and cooling. Got bite by mosqitoes and kana sun burn. The mosqitoe bite are very itchy and i can't stop scratching. Apply cream le still very itchy. I still think that the camp fire night is still the most fun part in the camp. The camp fire is being projected by the projector,which means that it is a fake fire.But the class cheer part is very fun.The whole class is very enthu and we were the last class to present the cheer. Almost all of us lost our voice. I too lost my voice and now my throat hurts. BUT it was quite fun after all! I enjoy the camp fire.

Den the last day we had to go home.All of us were VERY HAPPY that we can go home le! We neva bath for two nights and we stink,our hair were very oily too.All of us chiong home upon reaching sch.

After that went to meet zarinar to eat at cp kfc. We ate two piece meal and decided to walk around cp. I wanted to buy a small sling bag coz my sling bag spoil le. In the end,went to hougang mall to buy the bag. Went to 8 percent and buy,which cost $30. The bag is water proof and it is very nice.After that went to zarinar hse slack coz i don't want go home as nobody is at home. Just came back from her hse and blogging abt the camp and blah blah blah....

Ate medicine and soon i'm gonna knock out and fall aslp. Finally can slp on my bed! I MISS MY BED AND BOLSTER!!! YEAH!!! HAHA~

I go pack my things liao...
Tatas !!!
Cya soon...haha~

Tmr got adventure camp le! But I'm SICK! Just ate the medicine den the medicine will cause drowsiness de...So i anytime will sleep de...Sadded sia

Next few days can't online le coz going pulah ubin for adventure camp friday den come back.
Den today so bored,neva go sch den stayed at home all the time. Packing my bag for tmr camp den maybe go slp le.

Nothing much for today...
Thats all bah!
Tatas :)

YO ppl!

Back from camp le!Had fun during the camp,but I LOST my VOICE! AH!!!!
My voice gone...Now i talk,lyk zao sia liao...
Very weird lor...But lost voice jiu lost voice bah! At least i enjoy the camp alot! Even though some maybe quite sad...But thx for everything especially who consoled me during the camp fire night! THANKS ALOT GUYS!

Received a care bear from Mrs Chua! I lyk it so much! Its so cute! And its pink! PINKY!
U might think i siao le,but I'm NOT! Haha~

Things might not work out for me now,but it does not mean that it won't work out forever! Hope to start a new life after everythings has ended...Hope so...

Felt left out sometimes...But I somehow will find things to do.But the things I do will always be wrong...I sometimes really fell lyk I'm on the verge of breaking down and sometimes,I really feel lyk crying out and doesn't want to go sch...I just don't know why! I really think that I should not be in this universe or even be living! Sometimes really feel lyk dieing but when i thought of other ppl feelings, I tried not to think of that. But sometimes I just don't feel lyk talking even if i'm troubled or have alot of things in my heart. And I felt pissed off when my Grandmother and Father keep asking me the same question over and over again... I just don't feel lyk talking to them and I want to be alone! I sometimes even don't feel lyk going home! What has happen to me! Have I change to another person? Now I'm so confused! Sry to all those if I had left you out when I'm with other ppl or wat. Sometimes I just wan to be alone and I just don't want to be disturb! I have my own reason for doing things that is wrong or even if its correct! Don't even care about me! I just want to end my life sometimes when I'm thinking about all those things that had happen to me! Thats not the real ME! I'm searching back the old me! But i just can't find the old me! Where has the old ME gone? The happy ME gone? Or has somebody took it away or is it just that I'm keeping it from coming out? Can somebody just tell me what has happen to me? I just don't want this kind of life anymore! Can I end this life of mine? Can anybody tell me? Even so, The old me is not gonna come back! The new Me has taken over my life! From now on,you won't see the happy ME anymore! Even now that she had passed away, I'm so confused! I wish that everything will just go back to the pass where everybody is smiling and nothing is happening! I REALLY WISHED SO! But I know that it can't be happening...
So thats just a child's dream which won't come true! A child which had a sad life and no one knows about that from the start! She may look happy and hyper on the outside,but her inside is just a sad and helpless soul! Whats gonna happen to her,nobody know...Just hope that everything goes well for her! I just want to say this ....


"I MISS YOU AND I REALLY LOVE YOU! But why must you do this to me? I just don't understand! I'm not blaming you for leaving me but why? I just can't understand! I'm just barely a 15 year old girl! Have I done anything wrong so that you must do this to me? If I really had,Just tell me! Why must you do this to me! I don't want this to happen! "



To all, If I had hurt in one way or another, i just want to apologise for my words! Or If I had left you out in any situation!
I'M SORRY!
So pardon me for the things I had done! I just don't know what I'm doing!




I'll end here...Don't wish to be disturb right now! Just want to cool myself down and stop crying...
I'm tired of everything... I'm so tired after crying and things...
Gonna sleep...
Nites

Today is Thursday! Gonna be weekend soon!!! YEAH :) !
During lesson nothing much happen lah...
But for LCE lesson, it was very funny. Mrs Ng talked abt glen laughing and other things.
She say that no matter wat Glen do, the position will be the same de, he will put his hand at the forehead there den his laughter cn spread to other ppl de even they dunnoe whats the joke...
He is a very funny guy and he absolutely makes the class laugh lyk siao de.

After that not much things liao....
After sch, pei Qing go cp buy prepaid card with Greg(I think so). Den use his IC go buy.
Met up with Dagege at cp den chatted for awhile jiu go back sch le.
MC kor pei us go back sch den he go take his bus to his ITE to collect cheque.
Pro de lor him....Haha :)

Went back for CCA. Discuss abt Earth Day what we gonna do. Den me Qing Wenchou & Traviz 1 group.Den talked abt what we want to do and what games we want. In the end, maybe we will be calling SPCA to come set a booth. Discuss finish le jiu wait for teacher come back to class.
Den Qing saw the boys in the picture standing lyk emo de, she go take their picture secretly, which is the photo in this post. We was lyk laughing and laughing and they dunnoe that we took their photo... Super funny sia!



Nothing le lah!
Tmr den continue to post bah....
Hahas :)
Byes~ ppl!

Long Time neva post le!

Here i am posting about this few days...
Two days ago was my birthday! So happy that some actually celebrate it with me,but some cant come out, den neva mind lor....
Went to cp to eat den went to pasir ris to fish prawn....
Very funny sio...We only fish one very smal fish out of the pool of prawn.Den we laugh den we sat there for 1 hr,caught nothing except the small fish.
Aft that it rain quite heavily.Ran to the busstop to take bus.
went back compass to meet kalinda den went to my god-mother hse eat to celebrate my birthday.
Met Jonathan Zarinar KangQiao downstair my block den bring them there.
Went up together with RuiWen Weikang Kalinda.Aft eating,they ate the cake den they go use the cake go smash my face.Den i go hide in the toilet.
Aft awhile,they all went home coz it was abt 9 plus liao.
Said bye bye and they left.

Received present from friends.All i wan to say is THANKS FOR THE PRESENTS THAT U ALL HAD GIVEN ME! I LOVE IT!


This thursday have camp,so i think i'm not going blog for abt another 3-4days?
Sry to the readers who had been reading my blog.I noe is quite boring,coz i neva update quite often and sometimes it's dead. Haha~


As for today, nothing much happen.had meeting aft sch for abt 3 hrs? den discuss abt the bonding camp for sec 1.I in charge of sec 1H with shaowen and zainab.

Hope everything goes well on that day!

Shall end here le....
byes :)