Thursday, December 10, 2009 Y 9:49 PM
Sometimes I jus envy with other families...
They can go out together as a family can spend time together
Lyk going on vacation together or even shopping together....
But for me, I can't ..
Hiaz :(
Sometimes I really feel lyk crying but I kept it
But seriously, Why must all those unhappy things happen to me?
I jus wanted to spend my life happily until I die
But why mus things happen at the wrong time,wrong place,wrong person?
Seriously, sometimes I really feel lyk ending my life
Coz its lyk no meaning staying on...
I lost my interest in studying, but.........
I jus dunnoe why ...
Hiaz ....
I really thanks my friends for cheering me up sometimes
But sometimes I didn't even care to bother..
My emotions has taken over me,I let them control me instead of me controlling them....
I can be happy at this moment den the next moment,
You can see me silent and not talking anything...
Sometimes I really feel lyk giving up in everything that I'm doing
I know sometimes I'm giving empty promises to you guys
But I just control myself....
Sometimes I say this yet I do another thing ....
I know sometimes I hurt ppl in a way or another,
But I didn't want this to happen...
I just can't control myself from saying or doing...
I apologise to anybody that I broke my pormise too
Lyk what ppl say:
Outside look happy happy but inside is a broken heart that nobody knows about...
Somehow I agree with this statement...
I look happy on the outside but inside me,
I keep everything inside my heart...
I dun bother telling anybody about it
I dun wish to burden anybody or wat
I rather myself suffer den others suffering because of me
So if next time you see me sad or wat,
Just ignore me....
After awhile I'll be fine bahs ?
Hiaz ....
Have I let it go? or it is still inside my heart?
The scenes from that day,sometimes it just flashback in my mind...
Sometimes I still blame myself for not waking up earlier
But why?
I have nothing more to say le...
Hiaz ....
I think I'm a burden.
Saturday, December 5, 2009 Y 3:04 AM
Now my mood sucks to the core...
Crying at the moment...
I jus dunnoe wat has happen to me recently...
Alot of things in my mind...
Hiaz~
Think I'll end here bahs...
Nothing much to post with this kind of mood currently....
And dun ask me why or wat...
I cant give you a answer....
Ignore me okays?
Thanks alot...
Tuesday, December 1, 2009 Y 11:33 PM
Back to blogging...Actually didnt want to post,coz I'm getting lazy...But still i posted...Ytd:
Went to play pool around 2 plus with Cheryl and RuiwenDen aft saw a few we noe de...Den aft that jiu went to Cp eat abit den Ruiwen buy dog food Aft that Cheryl and Ruiwen jiu go homeMe jiu went to ACC there find Weikang coz I nothing to doThere was super cold...But still can tahan lorAft that jiu went to find Eugene at his hse thereWent to eat dinner at coffee shopEugene came find us...Aft that wait Sally uncle come find us lorDen uncle took cab send me wk and sally homeI alighted first...Den jiu lyk that for the day lor....Today:Morning wake up abt 11 plus den aft that went to ave 8 there Wanted change bus go ruiwen hseDen saw Zarinar on 161,den jus nice she alight the busAsked me whether wan eat lunch with her anotDen I say okay lor,coz very long neva eat with her le...Ate chicken rice~*skipped*Aft that went to Ruiwen hse play mahjongQuite funny lah...I abt 5.15pm lyk that go off.Went to Hougang interchange find my dad Took bus 89 went to EhubDen played the explorer kid with my aunt kidsQuite fun lah,sweat lyk carzy coz run here and thereHaha~Went to eat at a korea resturantThe pasta super nice! Nxt time go eat again,got student price lor...Den went to the fairprice there buy stuffBus-ed home on 89 den changed bus 88 at sch there de busstopReached home abt almost 11pm? Not sure timing...Jiu on com lor,nothing to do also....Hiaz~Changed my blog de song den now bloggingSian~~~!!!!!!Think I should end my post here bahs :)Nothing to post le...Byes *waves*If there's fate,we will be togetherIf there's none,den jiu too bad bahs....
