YO ppl!

Back from camp le!Had fun during the camp,but I LOST my VOICE! AH!!!!
My voice gone...Now i talk,lyk zao sia liao...
Very weird lor...But lost voice jiu lost voice bah! At least i enjoy the camp alot! Even though some maybe quite sad...But thx for everything especially who consoled me during the camp fire night! THANKS ALOT GUYS!

Received a care bear from Mrs Chua! I lyk it so much! Its so cute! And its pink! PINKY!
U might think i siao le,but I'm NOT! Haha~

Things might not work out for me now,but it does not mean that it won't work out forever! Hope to start a new life after everythings has ended...Hope so...

Felt left out sometimes...But I somehow will find things to do.But the things I do will always be wrong...I sometimes really fell lyk I'm on the verge of breaking down and sometimes,I really feel lyk crying out and doesn't want to go sch...I just don't know why! I really think that I should not be in this universe or even be living! Sometimes really feel lyk dieing but when i thought of other ppl feelings, I tried not to think of that. But sometimes I just don't feel lyk talking even if i'm troubled or have alot of things in my heart. And I felt pissed off when my Grandmother and Father keep asking me the same question over and over again... I just don't feel lyk talking to them and I want to be alone! I sometimes even don't feel lyk going home! What has happen to me! Have I change to another person? Now I'm so confused! Sry to all those if I had left you out when I'm with other ppl or wat. Sometimes I just wan to be alone and I just don't want to be disturb! I have my own reason for doing things that is wrong or even if its correct! Don't even care about me! I just want to end my life sometimes when I'm thinking about all those things that had happen to me! Thats not the real ME! I'm searching back the old me! But i just can't find the old me! Where has the old ME gone? The happy ME gone? Or has somebody took it away or is it just that I'm keeping it from coming out? Can somebody just tell me what has happen to me? I just don't want this kind of life anymore! Can I end this life of mine? Can anybody tell me? Even so, The old me is not gonna come back! The new Me has taken over my life! From now on,you won't see the happy ME anymore! Even now that she had passed away, I'm so confused! I wish that everything will just go back to the pass where everybody is smiling and nothing is happening! I REALLY WISHED SO! But I know that it can't be happening...
So thats just a child's dream which won't come true! A child which had a sad life and no one knows about that from the start! She may look happy and hyper on the outside,but her inside is just a sad and helpless soul! Whats gonna happen to her,nobody know...Just hope that everything goes well for her! I just want to say this ....


"I MISS YOU AND I REALLY LOVE YOU! But why must you do this to me? I just don't understand! I'm not blaming you for leaving me but why? I just can't understand! I'm just barely a 15 year old girl! Have I done anything wrong so that you must do this to me? If I really had,Just tell me! Why must you do this to me! I don't want this to happen! "



To all, If I had hurt in one way or another, i just want to apologise for my words! Or If I had left you out in any situation!
I'M SORRY!
So pardon me for the things I had done! I just don't know what I'm doing!




I'll end here...Don't wish to be disturb right now! Just want to cool myself down and stop crying...
I'm tired of everything... I'm so tired after crying and things...
Gonna sleep...
Nites