This is my 100th post for my blog!!!
Yeahs!!! Haha~!

BUT I think this post will be quite emo de bahs...

Y things have been happening?
Y mus things happen?
Y mus things be happening right now?
Y it cant be after everything has settle down?
I have been thinking abt all this question this few days...
So sometimes when u see me sad , pls dun ask me
And I dun wish to share, I dun wish to add any burden to anybody
I think I can handle bahs?
If I cant,I think I will beng kui lyk last time bah
Studies getting worst and worst...
What you expect from me?
All subjects pass?
I dun think I can even stay in express anymore...
Maybe nxt year I'll drop to NA bahs

I know there is alot of people caring for me
I dun wish to disappoint them
I wan to do them proud...
BUT CAN I?
CAN I DO IT?

I have been asking myself this...
But I jus cant get the answer for myself
Teachers approached me and talked to me
Sometimes, I think that I'm of no use, jus a useless person...
Everytime I feel like crying out in school or even at home
But I dun dare to,
coz I scared I let my teachers friends or family members worry about me
I dun wan them to worry for me

I jus wan to finish my studies properly and graduate...
This two nights I have been crying until I sleep
Thinking about this and my mother's death...
Y didn't I wake up earlier to check?
Y didn't I?
Questioning myself this questions...
On the cover of me, I may be strong and look like I have let go
But in the inside, I'm jus a weakling who havn't let go

Pretending to be happy is so hard!
Can I jus stop pretending happy and show my true self?
I really can't take it anymore!
I going back to old self again...

Y can't things jus go as per normal?
Y mus it have up and downs?
I can't take it anymore!
I think I am getting even more emotional den before...
I think have changed to another person le...
I think I have let the stress took over me...
I can't seem to control myself from crying...