I think I have change le bahs...
I'm not the old OngTing le bahs...
I think I am not the one that I am suppose to be bahs...
Choices that I have made are all wrong...
What can I do?
I think I die better bahs,
NO Worries, NO Anything!
Everything will be fine...
Thats what I say to myself everyday but it never happened...
Me and myself does not qualify what is wanted in this world...
I AM SO USELESS!!!!
WHAT I DO ONLY MAKE PEOPLE SAD AND WORRY FOR ME!
I MIGHT AS WELL END MY LIFE DEN EVERYBODY WILL BE FINE
THE WORLD HAVE ME OR DON'T HAVE ME ALSO NO DIFFERENCE
MY PRESENCE IS NOT IMPORTANT ON THIS WORLD
I HATE MYSELF TO THE CORE!
WHAT I DO IS ALWAYS WRONG!
I AM A IDIOT WHO ALWAYS MAKE PEOPLE SAD AND STUFF...
I AM SO STUPID AND SO USELESS!!!!
WHY MUST THINGS HAPPEN LIKE THIS?

And I want to apologise to Jonathan:
I know that I have broke my pormise to you
You can don't talk to me or wat
Its all my fault for making you so angry
I think there's nothing I can do to make this up to you
I have let you down...
I'M SO SORRY!


Not in the mood right now...
I guess I'll just end here bahs...
If I continue anymore,I think I will not stop crying...