Thursday, December 10, 2009 Y 9:49 PM
Sometimes I jus envy with other families...
They can go out together as a family can spend time together
Lyk going on vacation together or even shopping together....
But for me, I can't ..
Hiaz :(
Sometimes I really feel lyk crying but I kept it
But seriously, Why must all those unhappy things happen to me?
I jus wanted to spend my life happily until I die
But why mus things happen at the wrong time,wrong place,wrong person?
Seriously, sometimes I really feel lyk ending my life
Coz its lyk no meaning staying on...
I lost my interest in studying, but.........
I jus dunnoe why ...
Hiaz ....
I really thanks my friends for cheering me up sometimes
But sometimes I didn't even care to bother..
My emotions has taken over me,I let them control me instead of me controlling them....
I can be happy at this moment den the next moment,
You can see me silent and not talking anything...
Sometimes I really feel lyk giving up in everything that I'm doing
I know sometimes I'm giving empty promises to you guys
But I just control myself....
Sometimes I say this yet I do another thing ....
I know sometimes I hurt ppl in a way or another,
But I didn't want this to happen...
I just can't control myself from saying or doing...
I apologise to anybody that I broke my pormise too
Lyk what ppl say:
Outside look happy happy but inside is a broken heart that nobody knows about...
Somehow I agree with this statement...
I look happy on the outside but inside me,
I keep everything inside my heart...
I dun bother telling anybody about it
I dun wish to burden anybody or wat
I rather myself suffer den others suffering because of me
So if next time you see me sad or wat,
Just ignore me....
After awhile I'll be fine bahs ?
Hiaz ....
Have I let it go? or it is still inside my heart?
The scenes from that day,sometimes it just flashback in my mind...
Sometimes I still blame myself for not waking up earlier
But why?
I have nothing more to say le...
Hiaz ....
I think I'm a burden.
